Insecurity

Insecurity is a word to describe how I feel. Last Tuesday and Wednesday I went to the doctors to take a test. I found out that my heart is enlarged and something on the left side is not working right. So I can't do things the way I want to for a while. The only people I told was Robin and Drew, but she told some family and freinds(I'm not mad). So I had a long talk with a young lady who was worried and yelled at me. Not many people can do that and me not get mad. She told me that I was selfish and prideful for not telling others and asking for prayers and thoughts. I told her no, that was not right, becuase that was not how I meant it and not the way I think of myself. I am not above asking for help, but this one is hard. I don't know what to ask for, becuase I don't really know what is wrong. So I thought about it and prayed, then talked to Robin then prayed some more. And came up with how I feel about a lot of things. I am insecure about things, and how people think of me and even life. I guess that is why I keep a lot of things hidden from poeple. So these are my thoughts and hope this explains thing to everyone.